It's been a hectic few weeks at work and within my personal life. It's nice to have a day like today where everything runs smoothly and moods are positive, even comical.
I need positivity and humor in my life to feel balanced, we know this about me. So when a day feels productive and is also full of laughs it's a considerable accomplishment.
I realized today that I am not just lucky - I am luckier than most...sorry...but it's true. I am lucky because I work for a company that does something good and kind for families when they are suffering, struggling and at their lowest. I am lucky because I work with a group of quirky, interesting folk who are non-confrontational and relatively drama free...or I should say drama free with me. My job is satisfying; I like what I do and enjoy it even more when I know I've produced quality work or made people happy. And most importantly, I can be myself. I can be my crazy, slightly insane, sometimes moody, silly self and I am not asked to be different or stifle what makes me who I am. I am lucky because I love my day in and day out and honestly do not want to be anywhere else.
Sure it's not always a walk in the park or fun and silliness. Some times I go home feeling down or upset, but there is no such thing as a perfect job where you do not have a bad day every now and then. I know there will be better days like the one I had today and hope that there are more good than bad.
I wish I knew how to better vocalize how appreciative I am. I'm very good at dodging emotional connection and avoid a hug like the plague. But truth be told I really am not as uncomfortable as I once was showing that I care. I totally fucking care!! I spent a lot of time in my past acting like I was too cool to care or show that I feel strongly about the things that really matter. I am a team player and it's okay to wear a dedicated, passionate heart on your sleeve.
At the end of my day there was someone grumbling around with a snappy attitude. A pissy disposition like that usually ruins my day, however today that just wasn't an option. It wasn't worth ruining such a pleasant day for someone I don't even work with directly anymore. It isn't worth joining him in his bad mood. I'm going to go out on top and ride the high of my happy day knowing I am appreciated as much as I appreciate all that I'm given.
I see it every day - life is too short to get stuck in the muck. It isn't worth it. Connect and work hard and make a good life for yourself. Do subtle things to show your appreciation or come out and say it. Speak freely and be receptive. Love the life you live and let everyone know it!
I am creative - I like making something out of nothing in a good way. I like to build and construct with creativity. I am artistic and colorful. I make pretty pictures for a living.
I really want to help - I want to better the lives of others and make a difference. I genuinely care and even if I'm busy I will stop what I'm doing to help someone out.
I can have dinner with the president - I have class (although I may not always show it). I know when to say please and thank you and am someone who will make you look good and never embarrass. My dad didn't raise no fool!
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