I am not as bad as I thought...

Who wears false eyelashes and a push up bra to work out? Who puts makeup on before working up a sweat? I don't understand why some women feel like they have to have their boobs overflowing out of their shirts, bouncing all over the freaking place to feel attractive? My god, I thought this one girl was going to knock herself out with those giant fun bags flapping around her face so aggressively... 

And if you are wondering how I know that this is an intentional outfit choice, well that is easy... The constant looking around to see who is noticing is pretty much a dead give away... 

I'm sure plenty of guys are thankful for this woman and her need to wear revealing workout gear and maybe I'm a prude. I have better boobs than her by far but I am not at the gym to get looks or flaunt them. I actually never unleash them... I am a firm believer in keeping some things a mystery. 

I did realize the other day that I am not as fat or as unattractive as I thought. I was changing in a Marshall's dressing room and for the first time in a long time I saw myself as pretty. I was standing there in work slacks and a bra and noticed that I have hips, an ass, and am not half bad. I have confidence in myself more than I give myself credit for. I have been putting in the work and have been losing weight. I'm making progress and shouldn't be so hard on myself. 

My new motto is "I am not as bad as I thought, but am not as good as I know I can be." This is for my weight and general looks, but also for my attitude; my work; my relationships; my spirit. We can and should always strive to be out very best. If we have been given a second chance at life, we should try even harder. If we are presented with outstanding opportunities, we should seize the moments and try harder. We should always be the very best we can be and expect only what is realistic from everyone else. 

In need of a little bit of positivity and getting back to my affirmations:

I love to laugh: want to know the way in? Make me laugh. My friendships, relationships, everything is built upon and nurtured with humor. Sure I can be serious, but the way into my heart is humor. 

I am flexible: not talking about the bendy stretchy flexible... I am willing to change plans or try something new. I wasn't always... This is a relatively new concept for me that I am trying hard to build on and foster. 

I have an animated face: I have been told I have a rubber face. I can make incredibly strange faces and take some wickedly funny pictures. I also do voices. I am often embarrassed easily so I figure I might as well make a funny face and embarrass myself before anyone else can! 

Life is passing by quite rapidly so it is important to act swiftly, have fun and be the very best.