Clean House

After the gym yesterday I made a quick stop at Target for some household essentials then came home and dedicated the remainder of my day to cleaning. I went from one room to the next cleaning every surface until the whole house was sparkling. I'm not sure what prompted the cleaning spree, but I think it stems from something deeper than a house lacking tidiness.

With all the external stresses in my life lately I think deep cleaning my house was a way of taking control of something that I can make better. My husband recently said that your house is a representation of your mind and how you mentally feel. I think he's onto something because having a clean house makes me feel much more at ease. I feel like my life is a bit more grounded and I have control over things again. 

I also feel a sense of accomplishment. I started dusting, sweeping, wiping, washing dishes, moving furniture, etc. at 1:45 pm and wasn't finished until after 4 pm. I got into the zone and found my groove and was determined not to quit until things were perfect. I saw something through from start to completion and felt like I had accomplished something. 

I feel better about myself and things seem easier when my house is clean and orderly. When things are misplaced or disorganized and clothes are left out and shoes are all over the floor I feel suffocated. My mind mimics the mess in the house and I feel scattered and helpless. 

All the positivity yesterday must have continued into my morning today. I peacefully slept in, watched a heartwarming movie and went to the gym without hesitation. I want to be here running on the treadmill, feeling the sweat dripping down my temples, knowing I'm making a difference in my life. I want to feel the shortness of breath and strain in my calves because it means I'm trying and I'm working towards a better me. 

Man I feel healthy today! I wish every day could feel this electric.