It's b'shert!

I was in the middle of writing this whole blog about confidence and shying away from opportunity because of low confidence and fear of failure...but I'm honestly to happy and proud of myself today to finish it!

Saving it for another time, I will instead write about accomplishment and pride and contentment. Man I had a good day. A good day like today is a reset button that cancels out all the shitty ones that came before it. 

A lot of change has been going on at work lately and the environment has been tense and stormy. I have been spending a lot of time focused on this gatefold advertisement for one of the main publications we advertise in. Coming up with the concept and visual story of this one was tough because three ads had to be created and seamlessly flow into one big centerfold/back cover advertisement. It was challenging to say the least.

I think at one point I had 18 drafts of one side of the ad and spent a week straight on revisions. The ad even infiltrated my dreams and intensified my paranoia of spelling and grammatical errors. I ran an ad a few months prior that had a simple spelling error that people proofing and a computer didn't catch and I was not going to let that happen again! 

I put my blood (paper cuts), sweat and tears into that ad and once the final printing proof was approved I was left to anxiously wait for it to run. It ran today. And it looked FUCKING AWESOME! 

I'm going to take a moment here to gratuitously pat myself on the back. I am very proud of my work and everything I put into that. There is a little bit of me in that ad and it reassures me that I have accomplished a hell of a lot. 

I also feel very fortunate to know that the hard work I put into this ad and all the others is noticed and acknowledged and most importantly, I am appreciated. And likewise I know I am very lucky to be given so much support in so many ways. It feels so good to know someone believes in you and that you are an important piece of the machine. 

I ended up at my job on a whim, or so I thought. But I'm starting to view things differently. I was supposed to go through what I went through at my last job to motivate me to look for something else and I ended up at my job now because it was meant to be. I was meant to be working for the company I am at, for the amazing boss I have, with the crazy coworkers I am with, it was all meant to be. I'm one of the lucky ones and I know it! It is b'shert! ;)