With A Little Help From My Friends

I got out of bed at 6:30 this morning and went straight to the couch where I stayed in a haze lounging with two dogs watching two movies until I realized I committed to going to the gym and was going to be motivated today. 

I need a motivational pep talk to find motivation! I need a gym buddy or someone to help me stay motivated that I promise to encourage in return. I need someone to help me hold true to my word and stay on track. And I will do the same back.

On the machine directly in front me is this amazon blonde with defined arms jetting out of her toned shoulders. She is tan, flat abdominal muscles, and is very confidently pulling off a pair of tie dyed print spandex running pants and a crop top. She has every reason to be confident and I have every reason to hide in her shadow.

She stands for the dedication and hard work and motivation I desperately am trying to conjure up and hold on to. And the gods honest truth is I really want to see a perfect creation like that as motivation that I can get to that shape as well if I put the time and effort into it, but what really happens is I get discouraged. I get down on myself for looking opposite and for having such a long distance to go. 

It's not her fault I have self esteem issues, I do realize that. I can't criticize her for caring about her body and working hard to look good. She isn't putting in the work to threaten me. And to be honest I don't want the attention from the drooling d-bags staring at bouncing boobs on the treadmill. That isn't my thing. 

I just want the motivation I have to get stronger and last longer. I don't want to take my eye off the end goal and settle for being overweight and out of shape. So I'm doing something I usually never do - I'm asking for help. I need the help of a friend. I need to be surrounded by positivity and people working hard to better their lives to live well, love well, and think well. If you don't have someone to motivate you, I am here. If you don't have someone to promote you working on living a more positive, healthy life, I'm here for you. If you don't have anyone to push you, I'll do it. 

We all need positivity and encouragement, especially with the pace of life and stresses that consume us. There is nothing wrong with reaching out for a little help, especially from a true friend.