Good Morning World

Hello world. There is a cold chill in the early morning air. Wearing several layers and sweatpants I step outside with a hot cup of coffee and greet the new day with positive thoughts and a hopeful outlook. 

I went to sleep with far too heavy thoughts and worry. I fell asleep feeling unsettled. I woke up in the middle of the night from a bad dream that carried the theme of my last blog entry and it took a while to calm down and fall back to sleep.

Here I am now, up early and ready to see what the day has in store for me.  I used to practice positive affirmations, telling myself 3 things I was proud of about myself every morning while taking a shower. Going through the end of my marriage that habit fell by the wayside. I decided this morning it was time to bring that back. In all of my self examination of things I consider flaws that need tweaking, I have forgotten to appreciate what is good about myself. 

Remembering to focus on the positive and what is directly at hand is actually harder than it sounds. It is difficult not to look into the future and worry about all the things that may stop you or get you down. It's hard to not get anxious from things others do out of your control or things that you consider unfair. But we must try and be aware of the affects this way of thinking have on us and those in our lives. 

Sitting here as the sunrise peaks through the trees, taking a deep breath and holding onto the awareness of my body and my presence, I am thankful for the possibilities of the day; the week; the year. I understand with good comes the bad and I will take everything that comes my way in stride.